bridge

how to discuss the disappointment i feel toward myself?
it sits so heavy
not unlike the lump in your throat that chokes you before you cry
but in the chest
where you used to think your heart should rest
when you were little and everything was symmetrical and centred
and stable
and thoughts like this didn't even cross your mind
that you could give up, or worse
risk
all that you have
for...?
nothing...
where's the logic in that?
it was so pretty sitting up here on the fourth floor pretending to be ok
pretending it'll all be alright
pretending it isn't ripping your mind apart with fear. worry. desperation.

how to live how to live
to love living
when i can't live
can't live up
to all the hype
to all that's in my mind's eye..?

What a wonderful job well done to the lovely miner rescuers!

good good newses:

Sydney was a successful trip!! Lots of fun had, lots of good food, lots of fun navigating ;)

I got my MN essay back and got a H1!!!!!!!! Lyon is confirmed, yet again (and still I don't have my confirmation letter...) bloody French bureaucracy...

I have lots of lovely new moooooooooosic from Miss catdog that is keeping me company through long drives and bus rides...

Gigs to come: Rob Sawyer Lior/Fruit Jen Cloher Clare Bowditch Fourplay Melbourne Jazz Festival? The Audreys aaaaaaaaaaannnnnnnnnnnnnnnd

the VERY long awaited Jesmaq album is about to be finished!!! Yayyyy!!!!!! too bad the album launch is in August... I might miss that :'( Single launch in July in Melbourne!!!!!! :D

Most importantly: I'm happily bouncing from one uni assessment to another :D Mixing Kant and multiculturalism is obviously a dangerous drug!

I will, in time, write lengthy, incomprehensible, unrecognisable detailed prose pieces about probably all of the above but right now really isn't the time... love to you all peace out ~*~ xx


Isn't my baby the most beautiful baby in the whole wide world????

Those who disagree please don't comment because I shall just have to put a curse on you. You shall suffer the wrath of AnGrY la la luce which I've been told is not pretty, and involves lots of long-winded, incoherent, creative use of many languages that will in turn help to change your mind (and trust me, it WILL happen, and you WILL change you mind; yes, it is THAT type of torture). So let's just save me the trouble and the time and save you from the stalkerish type of misbehaviour that I am capable of ;P

much loves