gravity

"If I could attack with a more sensible approach
Obviously that's what I'd be doing [Right?!]"

- Gravity, The Dresden Dolls

eclipse

i got up this morning reasonably cheerfully
i was quite excited really
i was planning to do something i had never done before IN MY LIFE
and i was hoping and expecting a happy result
and then i heard on the radio that there would be a total eclipse of the moon tonight
so i was doubly excited
until i realised that it would start at 7pm and i would miss most of it being holed up at the red cross

so anyway, that didn't really change my mood..
much
i got to uni on time, a little later than usual, but before the lecturer,
so,
on time
and i managed to get a seat next to a most lovely of lovelies
so that was cool too
except
as the morning faded away
i realised that i really didn't have to courage to do what i wanted to do at all
and i watched,
as i often have
as a wonderful opportunity slipped away right before me
...
that's when i started to feel a little crap
it's quite sad to have to admit to myself that i really am just as much the coward i thought i was
...
anyway,
it was quite a nice day
so i didn't fret too much
i mean, plenty more fish in the sea... i mean, opportunities, obviously.
then i went to a tute where i hadn't done the reading for the week
and we had a little fun class quiz thing, to which i couldn't answer a single question
and my team won
so they passed around chocolate prizes
and i didn't take one
cos i felt like i really didn't deserve it
having contributed nothing to our "win"
that really didn't lighten my mood
...
so anyway, after that i went to lunch
i thought i would get something yummy from the festival of nations
but when i got to north court
it was just so packed, i couldn't even get close enough to SEE the food,
let alone buy any..
then i went to look for my big sis
and she wasn't in her office
by this point, i thought
it's not gonna be my day
..
then i ran across a friend
so we had our "non" lunch together and laughed a lot about highschool
and being short
that made me feel a little better
then i went to my last lecture, blowing my nose the whole way through
..
nothing else much happened for the rest of the day
i went to see an exhibition with the big sis
i went to work
wasn't a great night but it wasn't bad either
.. when i was walking to work
i thought
why do some days, the sun shines and you feel like it is shining from you own heart?
and why do some days, the sun shines and it just feels like glare in your eyes?
when i got home my lovely pb reminded me to look at the moon
and so i did and i stood by the door frame for a few minutes,
contemplating the empty-ness of
this
the moon was beautiful

'!'Fire'!'

"Its feeling so fine to do what I do
The pleasure's all mine to do it for you
The rhythm you do is so shiny and new
Its feeling so fine
To do what I do what I do what I

I love the way it feels!"
Fire - Jess McAvoy

Jesmaq will be back in Melbourne!!!

Sometimes you can have a really good day, without anything special happening at all.
Sometimes you can have a really, really, REALLY good day,
and you just smile
cos the sun's out
today was one of those days
:)
xx

Sundaze

what a beautiful day it was today
i went for a long walk with my dog, around a lake, in the late afternoonish time
having crawled out of bed not too long before
and it felt GREAT
and i didn't have music
blocking out the sounds of birds and lapping water
and i didn't have angry/depressing/self-righteous lyrics
reminding me how to feel more intensely
and i had instead
a phone number
humming
in my pocket
and a letter
recognising my desire
and sweat
proof that heat is a product of action

xx

Saturday night fever

well, actually, it was more like Thursday night fever...

ok, so i was gonna write about being sick and being stuck at home doing assignments on a saturday night, the first i've spent home in god knows how many months, and now i don't have time to cos i have a dinner date with the lovely and sweet ernie, of whom i haven't even seen the shadow for aaaaaaaaages and who has been a busier bee than i have :P

til next time (probably later tonight or tomorrow when i'm procrastinating some more)!

LOVE with ABANDON!

xx

announcement:

this will be the first time that many of you will hear about this,
I'm getting my first piercing!!!

Yay! :D

sunny sunday

sometimes a walk can take you further than you realise

snippets - misinterpreted

"i want to go but know that hopes of love will play on me
i'd better sleep until i'm truly free..."

- melanie horsnell, kiss you again

~wings~

"i search your profile
for a translation
i study the conversation
like a map..."
- ani difranco

the world is a stage and we are all players
...
so many new characters
what do you think you're playing at?

busy-ness

it's 11.17pm
i should be in bed
too little sleep in too many weeks
but
i'm too excited

!!!