"You're laughing like you love me..."

Last night I went to bed at a rather low point, highly disappointed in myself for the lack of work I've been doing and even more disappointed in the way I've been managing my emotions..

So I decided to think happy thoughts. I was thinking about how some people bring the best out in me. Or rather, how they bring out the happy me, without even trying. And how, I like the person I am when I am with them. I want to be the person that they see, all the time.

Around 1am last night, I was still lying in bed wide awake thinking, thinking, thinking, and suddenly I hear my phone buzz. I got a text message. But because I sleep on the top bunk, I had to climb all the way out of bed to get my phone. I was hoping, rather unrealistically, that it was from a particular someone, but suspecting that it could also be this random friend of a friend I met the night before who had messaged me the same night at like 3.30am (yes, exactly, wtf?!?!), I was a little hesitant to check. But anyway, I did check, and it was (thankfully) the particular someone I was thinking about and was so desperate to hear from.

I was very :D

It is super nice to know that someone who is on holi-holidays away at a beautiful beach for the weekend with a stack of friends would not only be thinking about me, but would also, despite being surrounded by so many fun and beautiful people, prefer to talk to me. And in the middle of the night.

It's been a long time since I've had a nice long phone chat whilst in bed, talking about everything and nothing at the same time, sometimes not talking, and it being ok, cos we both understand that talking isn't at all about words. And to know that I can make someone laugh. I've missed that..

I didn't want to get out of bed this morning, it being horrible and rainy, but I have a ton of work to do, which I should probably get back to now...

Thanks to my most recent lovelies: Ms Red and The Queen of Hearts. The last five months would have been a super depressing bore if you had not come along and tickled my sense of humour and curiosity. I have enjoyed talking to you both very, very much :)

xx