somedays

somedays are better than others
somedays are better than lovers
:P
sometimes i think all i ever really do is regurgitate the things i like
nothing is original
nothing is mine
but Kathy Acker did that
and made a career out of it

Acker's not a role model
although i did like that Alice in Wonderland piece..

this afternoon i sat here so completely flat
i wrote witty emails with dry sarcasm to try to convince myself that i could convince my friends
that all it is is boredom
that calm between storms of passion

then a friend suggested long drives
and i imagined the coast
summer

another friend suggested a long heartfelt chat
and i imagined
a good ol' cry
supported on a comforting shoulder
of course

i just feel so completely empty

countdown:
four weeks
four days
four hours

~.~

The Tops - Kat Frankie

"better not to look down
together we planned this
i said if you made it
it won't change a thing
but you're not here
to tell me you need love
you're trapped in the midst of
your own infamy

but can't you see what it's like
and see what it means
for us for all for you and me
and i'll explained what it's like to hope
that
easy come is easy go"